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Part 2

--From the days of uncertainty to entering the Kalafina era--

The activities after going to Tokyo

After moving to Tokyo, I had received voice coaching along with Yuu-chan (Yuuka Nanri). Yuu-chan is very good at singing and has perfect pitch, most importantly is that she sings classics, so her voice is beautiful. This is culture shock to me. After these trainings together, I realized I have a lot of weaknesses. Things like "my techniques in this is still not good" "I'm not good at up tempo songs, so I have to overcome it" I've learned a lot from the teacher and Yuu-chan. I had a chance to take part in the Spacecraft produced live (Female Voice Party!!), which gathers the aspiring singers of the company. There, I've met Keiko and Kaori. Even though Kaori was still a high school student, but she was a model at the same time, so she's very cute and has a tall figure. Seeing that made me think how not fascinating my high school life was. (laughs) Because I've never seen a high school student as captivating as Kaori is, I can't help but think "Tokyo is great!"

Uneasiness after going to Tokyo

● At first, everything was smooth, but the time after that and before the decision of Kalafina's formation was full of uneasiness. Even thought, "where did the vigor from the time of going to Tokyo went?" I don't like working temporarily and want to move away from that as soon as possible. These thoughts became my motivation.

● I feel very happy that I get to participate in Kajiura-san's chorus work occasionally, and always look forward to it next time.

● The Kalafina project started after I was in Tokyo for two years. I felt very uneasy, the first thing was "being in a unit instead of working solo..." The relationship between Keiko and I was probably just two person working in the same agency, not particularly close friends. At first I wasn't really sure, the feeling is probably just "nice meeting you." {how do you translate yoroshiku? lol}

● Hikaru joined in during sprinter, that's when I finally understand Kalafina as a unit.

● Kalafina exceeded the Garden of Sinners era and entered a new world, holding lives and events lets me confirm that I'm truly happy now. I wouldn't think that maybe Kalafina will end one day, but that each of us will eventually find a way that is fit for ourselves one day, I myself think that I will find my music when I'm 35-40 years-old.

● Kalafina's turning point: Foremost is that we've started having live concerts. We had our Closed Premium Live when we simultaneously released Seventh Heaven and Lacrimosa. This is a concert to tell the world that "the three of us will be singing as Kalafina from now on!" Before, we only have to be able to sing in a studio, after that, we'll have to be in front of an audience, singing, moving, we'd have to let everyone accept that. To me, it's like rising from defeat and challenging Shiki Theatre Company again. You can tell from the early concerts that I'm not good at being in front of people. I get very nervous and confused. But I had a strong feeling that it's absolutely necessary to overcome that.

......I don't really want to say this..... Last year...I though, I don't really fit in this world. I feel that I didn't do what people looked for in me. I had been troubled by a lot of things a whole year since the beginning of last year. It was very serious. I wasn't satisfied with my stage performances. If I couldn't make myself satisfied, I can't perform for other people. I dread singing in concerts, but...that is a trial for me, the meaning of being born to this world. I've talked to a lot of people and had received a lot of help.

──The more you feel genuine towards your music, the more you don't want to think "just let it be"

W: No...I'm going to cry. Sorry... But yes, that's how it is...(cries) It's really really painful...I've seriously thought of giving up. Last summer, I've told the members about this and they've cried for me... "Thank you for telling us"... I thought "this is good." The existence of Kalafina became my support, once more I felt that I can go on because they're there. Now I can definitely say that "even though I get nervous all the time and couldn't do my best in things, wanted to withdraw a few times, but we're together now, so it's alright, Thank you." So, I will definitely not withdraw from Kalafina, it's not going to end. The three of us, our dream, we'll make it happen.

VVVVVVVVVVV

Info for the Closed Premium Live on Niki's (abandoned) blog:
[Kalafina] Kalafinaクローズドプレミアムライブ (5/19) 現場情報收集 <http://gillsa.blog64.fc2.com/blog-entry-203.html>