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Title: No Longer Lonely

Original Title: 不再寂寞
Author: 燕燕（Twitter:@uiop801801)

Sakura Miko regretted it.

The door of the hotel room standing in front of her was closed, and as long as she rang the doorbell, someone almost a complete stranger would open it for her.

She came here with passion, but her rationality, which had been absent for the past few days, suddenly returned at the last minute, cooling her hot head down.

What was she doing?

Even though she questioned herself like this, Miko actually knew the reason very well.

She was so lonely.

Miko sighed, took out her phone, and began to have another headache. How could she tell the other person that she was not going to the “appointment” without being rude as much as possible? Even right after she messaged that she had arrived at the nearby station?

Since the other party was really a good person, escaping like this made Miko feel even more guilty.

...let's get out of here first. After Miko regained her rationality, she started to feel super embarrassed.

She was about to move, but the door suddenly opened with the sound of hinges. Miko was startled, she looked over subconsciously, and saw an even more frightening scene.

Inside the door was a slender figure, a blue figure she was all too familiar with.

"Ho, Hoshimachi?!"

The surprise on Hoshimachi Suisei's face flashed for a moment, and she soon brought up a playful smile. "Isn't this Mikochi?"

The shrine maiden had a hollow laugh subconsciously.

"Uh, such a coincidence, I didn't expect Sui-chan to ​​be here too, I think I've walked into the wrong room, so I'll just—" After saying that, Miko turned around and wanted to run away.

"EliteSakura0035."

The sound from behind made her spine chill and stopped her.

That's her username. The username of a dating app that was registered around last week. That’s a somewhat silly name after she had tried several common usernames that she used and was told they had been taken.

──No way.

Miko turned back tremblingly and saw her smiling business partner.

"Right. You’re correct. It's this one."

No way……

"Come in first?"

"……What?"

"You want to do “that”, right?"

"What?!"

Suisei half-stepped into the room, turned slightly sideways, tilted her head. Her sky-blue hair was hanging down her shoulders and neck, and her delicate face with light makeup had a pleasant smile on her face.

"Aren't you coming?"




──She regretted it again.

She really regretted it.

She really wanted to get out of here.

Miko really didn't know why she followed Suisei to come in, and sat side by side with this business partner on the bed of the love hotel.

She also didn't understand why Suisei just accepted her “appointment” target was herself, and she had no intention of giving up.

Wouldn't she find it strange? Doing “that” with a business partner?

Miko does mind it actually nye! Al, although she went in after Sui!

The person beside her didn't understand Miko's complicated feelings at all. She reached out and put her hand on Miko’s thigh, which made her shrink in fright.

Suisei laughed. "Are you nervous?"

Of course. Who would not be nervous in such a situation. Why does this girl seem so calm?

"...No." She couldn't help but be stubborn when she faced this comet.

"Yeah." Suisei said with a smile, sounding incredulous. She turned Miko's hand over and rubbed her palm gently, as if to help her relax.

At least Miko did feel less nervous because of this. But Sui's next words put those efforts in vain.

"So, Would Miko do it? Or should I do it?"

"Do, do it for real?"

"You're already here, and you’re still asking this?" Suisei laughed, took Miko’s hand to her face, and kissed her palm while gazing at her.

Miko's face turned red all of a sudden.

Her hand was brought to rub against Sui's face, but soon her hand seemed to have self-awareness and rubbed Sui's cheek autonomously. Suisei narrowed her eyes, her brows relaxed enjoying the touch of Miko.

──So cute.

Soft cheeks, cool ears, smooth blue hair, slender neck, collarbone...

Suisei chuckled again, leading the stiff hand to her chest.

...Her boobs.

Miko never thought that she would touch Sui's chest, even though she was still wearing her clothes.

Raising her eyes, she saw Suisei smiling lightly, the starry pupils revealing lustful light.

She kept her face away and didn't dare to look more.

"Hoshimachi, do you...do this, this kind of thing very often?" she stammered.

"This kind of thing? You mean hookup?"

"Don't be so direct!"

"Why? Isn't it just a hookup?" Suisei smiled and said, "Aren’t you also doing so?"

"This…This is my first time."

"Well, I can see it." She seemed to find it very interesting, and giggled.

I can see it……

Miko felt that her chest was congested, and the body temperature that had just risen cooled down. She put on a sullen face and kept quiet.

"Hey Mikochi, you love boobs too much, right?" Suisei smiled and scratched the back of her hand that was still on her chest with her fingertips.

Itchy from the bottom of her heart.

But for her present self, it's more like a dull pain.

Miko quickly withdrew her hand and said in a muffled voice, "I'm going back." Then she stood up.

"Mikochi?"

Ignoring the confused voice behind her, she walked straight to the door without looking back and was about to pull it open, but one hand pressed the door panel hard from behind.

"Let go."

"Mikochi, what's wrong with you?"

"I said I’m going back."

"Going back...But you're crying."

"Leave me alone."

"Mikochi..."

Suisei tried to touch her shoulder, but was resisted and avoided.

"I said leave me alone!" Miko almost yelled at the door.

But Suisei never listened to her.

Suisei squeezed Miko’s shoulders and turned her around to face her.

Miko stubbornly lowered her head and wiped her face indiscriminately, her hands full of tears.

"Mikochi." The way Sui called her name was so gentle, it made her tears fall even more fiercely.

"I’m sorry, please don't cry."

She didn't know what went wrong, but she apologised as her own fault. Miko's heart became more and more bitter.

"Mikochi..."

She had never heard her business partner speak in such a helpless and pleading tone. She finally looked up and saw Sui's worried and sad expression in her teary eyes.

"I'm sorry." Facing her sobbing face, Suisei lowered her eyebrows and said it again sincerely.

Miko shook her head. Sui did nothing wrong. Her apology doesn't soothe anything, it just makes Miko look more sad. She was the only one who was wrong from the start to the end. From her entering the room, from her agreeing to the invitation, from her trying to get the warmth she couldn't get from others.

From the time she loved someone she shouldn't love.

Fall for that shining, handsome, cute, naughty and gentle...colleague.

Fall for her business partner.

It's all wrong.

God knows how much she wanted to hug the person in front of her, but definitely not in this form. But how could she refuse? This might be the only chance in her life to touch the person she has longed for.

But she didn't want to know that someone else touched her as well. She didn’t want to feel like she was just a memory of one night.

Although she was not someone special at all, and she had no right to feel sad about it.

But she couldn't stop crying.

Suisei moved her hand carefully and caressed Miko's tear-stained cheek, so tenderly that made Miko feel nostalgic.

Please don’t Cry.

Miko could feel what Sui wanted to say.

She wanted to.

She really wanted to stop crying, desperately wanted to hug her tightly, or simply just turn and leave.

She really wanted to.

But she couldn't.

She always couldn’t.




"There seems to be a new dating app recently."

During the breaks between recordings, Holomems always get together and have small talks.

"Oh, I see."

"Sui-chan sounds too uninteresting for this."

"What's the app’s name?"

Hearing Miko's question, Suisei finally looked away from the mobile game and glanced at her.

Although it was just a casual question, she could sense that Miko was really interested in it.

──What does this girl want to do?

Shouldn't she be someone who would want to try something like this? Even though it was just her own opinion.

After Miko got the answer, she didn't say much and continued to chat along the fast-changing topics with other members.

Suisei just quietly memorised the name of the app and continued her grind in the activity of the mobile game.

Sui’s grind continued until the next day. She closed the game and downloaded what seems to be the newly-issued dating app based on her impression.

For the so-called matching suitability of the current apps, there are a lot of things to be filled in. Suisei really wanted to close her eyes and just close the app when she looked at the numbers of blanks that she needed to fill in. But she still tried her best to fill it out. And then she saw all kinds of people appear at her friend's recommendation.

She quickly slid past dozens of people, and suddenly felt a little ridiculous.

Maybe Miko just asked because of curiosity.

Maybe she didn't fill in those troublesome information and questions truthfully.

When she thought of these, the comet became disillusioned, slipped off two passersby at random, and suddenly widened her eyes.

Sakura was used as the profile picture, and the user name was silly as EliteSakura0035, it must be her.

No, it’s too obvious. Is it really okay? This PON shrine maiden. Although it might be done by some certain fans, somehow Sui felt that this was the real one.

Suisei groaned and clicked the pairing button.

When she woke up the next day, the screen showed the pairing was successful.

Suisei was holding the phone, not knowing whether to be happy or worried.

She even greeted properly at first.

"Hello, Hosi-san."

She forgot that she took the name Hosi612. It was also silly for her to think about it now.

"Hello Sakura san~"

So they started chatting casually. To Sui's surprise, EliteSakura rarely disclosed personal information in the chat, so that she was still not sure if this was Miko herself.

But that was easy to confirm.

It just happened that there was another recording where they had to work together.

It just so happened that Miko had to leave for a while and left her phone on the table.

It happened that she sent a message to EliteSakura.

Just then, the phone on the table lit up.

Bingo.

Apart from her non-disclosure of personal information, Suisei quickly understood why Miko wanted to use a dating app. There is a strong sense of loneliness everywhere between the lines, which made her heart ache.

She didn't expect that the person who was always beside her laughing at silly things would feel so lonely.

Suisie couldn't help but wonder if she was disqualified. Either as a business partner or as a friend.

Seeing that the conversation changed from rusty to coquettish in just three days, the girl probably needed “physical comfort”. Suisei thought. She would never let anyone else do this.

It's best just to be done by herself.

She should be satisfied by her, both physiologically and psychologically.

So she said, "Let me give you warmth."

The other party hesitated for a whole afternoon.

Then she said yes.




But at this time Miko was crying in front of her, pursing her lips tightly, as if she was enduring something.

This was the first time Suisei saw Miko crying. She didn't know why she was crying, but that was probably her fault. She touched her face and wiped away the tears again and again, hoping to stop the other's sadness, which made her heart ache.

At least Miko did not resist her touch, which was the only good news left.

"Mikochi... I'm sorry, have I forced you?"

Miko kept quiet, Suisei could only try to guess what went wrong.

She shook her head again, keeping her mouth tightly pressed.

Suisei found herself not knowing what to do with Miko.

"... Shall we go back to the bed and sit and rest?" She added, "I promise I won't do anything."

Miko kept still for long, and finally nodded slightly.

Suisie slowly took her hand, led her back to the bed, found the tissue paper in the room, hesitated for a while, pulled a little distance and sat down, reaching out and stroking Miko's back.

Miko gradually calmed down, except for the occasional sound of sniffling.

"Are you okay?" Sui said, her voice soft as if she was afraid of scaring her.

"Yeah." Miko's response was full of gasping sounds.

Suisei hesitated for a while, but continued to ask, "Can I know what I did wrong?"

Miko shook her head. "It's not Sui-chan's fault."

"Why?"

"……I don’t want to say."

Sui didn't expect to get this kind of response, and felt a tightness in her chest.

She hated being rejected by Miko. She also hated knowing nothing about Miko.

She grabbed Miko's finger, the slightly smaller hand turned so that she could hold it well, as usual.

Suisei was relieved.

She had hardly ever done such a thing to test the sense of distance, but she was so afraid that Miko would suddenly cry again.

She had always been said to have a problem with the sense of social distance, and she had frequent skinship with the shrine maiden. She thought that Miko, who was shy, accepted her to such an extent that she might have touched her heart to some extent.

Thinking about it now, it seems that she was too self-righteous.

Whether it was the reason for her crying or the loneliness in her heart, she didn't know at all.

"Mikochi, are you lonely?"

Miko pursed her lips again.

She hates Miko's silence.

"...Do you feel lonely even if you're with me?"

She hated this idea.

The shrine maiden turned to look at her, her green eyes slightly widened.

...She must have had a lame face.

Suisie couldn't help but lean over, resting her forehead on Miko's shoulder.

She really wanted to hug her.

She hated that she could only think about it now.

Perhaps hearing her inner voice, Miko gently touched her head.

"It's fun to be with Sui-chan."

"Really?"

"Really."

Suisei raised her head and stared at Miko stubbornly.

"Then why do you feel lonely?"

"No, what should I say..." Miko seemed to finally intend to answer, but hesitated. "You see, something like physiological needs..."

"Can't you just do it with me?"

"You, you, I can't do it with Sui-chan!"

"Why? Didn't you enter this room with me?"

"That, that's it! I was just confused at that time!"

"Just confused...Doesn't it mean you could accept it?"

"Although it is true! Although it is true..."

Miko covered her face.

"Then why not?" Suisei tried to give more pressure.

"...Well, come to think of it! Why did you accept it so naturally! Generally speaking, it would be embarrassing to do this with someone you know!"

"I’m fine if it's Mikochi."

"Why!"

"Why..."The comet tilted her head slightly: "Because I want to do this with Mikochi?"

Although there were many reasons why things have turned out this way, they could be summed up as such.

Miko blushed instantly.

"So why?"

"Don't you need physical comfort?"

"I, you, aren't you too!"

"No, I’m not."

"Huh? But you're doing a hookup?"

"What “But”, this is my first time doing this."

"Huh? Liar!"

"It’s real."

Suisei reluctantly replied, and suddenly a light bulb went on in her brain, her eyes widened, and her tone was shocked, "Do you think I'm doing this often?"

Miko didn't seem to be less affected.

"Are, aren't you?"

"Of course not! Why!" Suisei couldn't believe it.

"Be, because Sui-chan looks very skilled..."

"I’m not skilled! Idiot!"

Miko didn't reply, she just frowned, and solemnly confirmed it again: "...Haven’t you really done this before?"

"No!" Sui shouted snappishly.

"I see...That's great..."

……Great?

Miko relaxed too obviously, and Suisei couldn't help but try to interpret the situation in the direction she wanted.

"Are you jealous?"

"Why, no!"

Sui looked at the shrine maiden's reddened ear, and knew that she had finally found the right direction.

Uh-huh. It seemed that she was not so self-righteous, and maybe she even underestimated the situation.

"You're so jealous that it even makes you cry? Mikochi just likes me too much." Her voice couldn't hide her joy, although she didn't mean to hide it.

Maybe she didn't have to hide anymore.

"What, what, I didn't..."

Miko's voice was rubbed away by the hands that touched her face again, and the green eyes that had just been crying timidly cast towards her.

So cute.

Everything that just happened suddenly became lovely.

Even Miko's denial sounded cute.

"It seems that the misunderstanding has been resolved."

"Yeah, yes."

"Then shall we continue?"

"Continue what...?"

"The hookup."

"Aha?!"

Suisei leaned forward with a smile, kissed the corner of Miko's eye, and there was still the salty taste of tears. Miko just stiffened her body, neither hiding nor refusing.

She was sure that Miko would not reject her again.

She also didn't intend to let her refuse.

She would be like that from now on.