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RedHead

An All Too Jagged Snowflake



比硬生生折斷骨頭還痛。

這邊補刀一下, 因為他們兩個的聯結比其他人都強大, Len單方切斷聯結, 不只是不希望Barry發現自己的感覺而已 (Barry怎麼可能不知道), 還同時希望保護Barry, 讓Barry不要體驗到他感受到的、比粗暴折斷骨頭般遮斷聯結還痛徹心扉的疼痛; 而Len感覺得到Barry Barry因為單方面喪失聯結, 喪失感很重又焦急不安, 可是這時他什麼都顧不得了, 也沒有把握回復聯結不會傷害到Barry 。

而且這邊的Len還只是知道有一條Barry跟Iris未來會在一起的時間線被抹掉而已, 就已經痛到甚麼都聽不見看不見了。


Like breaking a bone, Len cut off the bleed. It was instinct, anything to stop the flood of feeling from reaching Barry. The sudden, blindsiding hurt, the sick taste of bile in his throat, the shudder he couldn’t suppress. Barry was shaking his head, whispering Len’s name, moving closer but Len wouldn't look at him. He didn’t expect to react like this, but Barry marrying her, Barry knowing he was going to marry her… Barry supposed to be with her, have kids with her, wanting her… and getting him instead.


“Len, Lenny, hey, come on, it’s not like that.” Barry’s voice was so soft, hand gripping Len’s shoulder, cupping his neck.

“But you married her.” It wasn’t really a question, but Barry grimaced anyway, tight around the eyes, and half-nodded. Len averted his gaze again, pulled away from his hands. “And had kids.”


Barry exhaled but didn’t try to touch him again. Len could still feel him, his emotions, a one-way street right now, so much pain and worry bubbling around inside him.
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“I don’t want an apology.” He shouldn’t have even asked. He’d already known the answer. Barry felt so lost but Len couldn’t bear to reopen his side of the bleed yet.


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