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Quinn & Faith - Knights of Legend
aka a ship that I rewrote the lyrics to Anaconda for once upon a time...
Anyway! So, the hardest part about this ship is that I love writing it so much, but I constantly have to remind myself that THIS IS ONLY THE SECOND TIME THAT SHE HAS EVER SEEN HIM. We write these really long, like hella long, scenes with them that stretch across months and months of RP time that it feels like they've just been together that long, but then I have to go HA HA nope. 2nd date.

Thankfully, Faith doesn't do anything by the normal standards of things, so it's all good.

Still, I think Faith sees a lot of the things that she's been afraid to accept of herself being offered up right in front of her. She's walking along this thin line of just giving in and putting the Knights up on a shelf for a bit to see if she can have that reckless life that she always thought she'd end up getting. I mean, when Faith rolls onto the scene in S3 - she's thinking about how awesome it is that there are two Slayers and how it'll make everything super easy and they don't have to follow the rules because what are they gonna do -- arrest them for killing vamps? They should throw parades for them! Then reality kicks her in the ass and she makes some Gob Bluth level mistakes and she ends up putting aside all of her Superior Slayer Status for something far more attainable. She takes that "Do That Girl" motto and turns it into something that's actually closer to what they probably wanted Faith to do as a Slayer. She's a natural leader, she's focused and blunt, and she's willing to take the hugest risks by putting herself in danger just to get the job done. (Though, I don't think the Council thought she'd do all that to save a vampire - soul or not.)

It's *that* Faith that struggles with being so close to falling back down that slope toward theft and excitement and public debauchery. She thinks that she can handle it better this time, that she can manage it and she won't let it lead her too far off that path - but at the same time, she has this WHOLE NEW group of people and they don't really know much about who she was. They only see what she's done for them and it's the sort of thing she's really been enjoying. She has Buffy that actually seems to get along with her - and respects her. That's something Faith never thought she'd have.

She's in this bizarro world where she feels like she's got two perfect scenarios to choose from. They're like both the ideals of what both sides of her always wanted and she's like "HOW DOES CHOOSING??"

Now, aside from Faith's internal struggle with these two lifestyles constantly being a struggle bus for her - Quinn himself is this magnet that she's drawn toward. She sees so much of herself in the things that he says and does that she's pretty sure that at some point he's going to stab her or something because she doesn't trust things that seem too easy. Especially when it comes to relationships like this. She likes how she feels when she's around him, though. Likes that she can be a bit reckless and wild and not feel like she's pushing someone to do these things with her.

She wants to explain the Slayer stuff to him, like fully. Like, let him in on the darkness that she figures he can relate to - because of his own gifts. It's just not the easiest thing to start into... like post sex, she's like "So, hey - a thousand years ago, in the world that I'm from, because I wasn't born here or anything, there were these old dudes that were hella scared of monsters. So they took the spirit of a monster and shoved it into a girl so that she could fight for them. Then she died and they were like ... eh, just move it into another girl." Like, it's not sexy talk and it's depressing and it's not even something that Faith is heavy into the history of. She wasn't the book girl and even if she knew the highlights well enough to pick up on Spike being "William the Bloody" just based on his appearance and mannerisms when she had stolen Buffy's body - I still don't think she was studying up on the nightmares she was getting.

The other secret she has lurking is that she's a Knight - not a 9 to 5 desk job girl. Which, I'm sure that after this second date she's probably done the whole walk up to Wynn.... get half-way there... turn around and just forget it type thing a few times. Because she knows that Wynn is like her replacement Angel. He's the one that gave her this chance here, he's the one that "saved her" and she owes it to him to keep that secret for him. But she's still like "So, there's a guy..." which she figures he's heard way too many times before, so she's like "NAH... I can deal with him not knowing my job and thinking I just get my kicks punching guys that grab my ass."

I also know that if he did finish that job in France (which I am assuming we moved our thread to closer dates since the museum was January and his job was "soon" and if he said he'd call her and then didn't call her for like... 4 months she'd prob just be like "WELP. I knew it was too good to last." so I've been running on that assumption... BUT anyway) and did call her and just said "I got paid a lot of money, take a month off from work and come with me to Curaçao." she'd be like "The alcohol?" and then she'd be like "Okay. I'll pack a bikini and.... sunglasses." and then she'd be like "I'm taking a month off. I've fought too many floating things recently." and she'd go. Like no issues there at all. She'd send people postcards.

HA HA I think I have written too much. BUT, let me just say that I didn't app Faith in thinking that I'd get to explore this very untouched side of her character. In canon she has the one moment of almost stealing Buffy's "guy", then kind of assaulting Buffy's "friend", and then actually sleeping with Buffy's "guy" and then comas and prison. Through all of those failed attempts at intimacy always made me want to push at those issues and see if prison and relying on someone else and being trusted by someone else would let her open up. It's a lot more difficult to unfold when I have to leave parts of it up to the roll of a dice, too, but I've enjoyed unfolding this and I really like that I'm getting a chance to do this in a way that actually gives her a real chance at actual freedom and choices. Other game environments lock her down into a setting or circumstance, but this is giving me a lot more to work with and I'm really glad that you decided to throw him at her. ;;